May 18th, 2017 – One year ago we said goodbye to our friend, brother, father and husband, Larry Harrison.
The anniversary date of a loved one’s death is particularly significant. You will have done something you thought was impossible a few months earlier, you will have survived an entire year without someone who was as important to you as life itself.
The hardest part of losing someone isn’t learning to say goodbye, but rather learning to live without them, always trying to fill the void.
Years ago, if someone would have ever told me I would have to go through such a loss, I never would have believed them. But I have and each day I try my best to come to terms with it … and it is a difficult journey.
Where has the time gone since you left me? It seems like only yesterday, but the calendar tells me differently. My heart still aches for your smiling face and to hear your voice. Each page of the calendar I turn over puts a measurable distance between the day you left and today … but my heart tells me it’s only been an instant.
Whenever I am missing you, I also remember how fortunate I was that you were in my life; I wouldn’t trade those moments for the world.
Sometimes I don’t know if the tears I cry are for you or for myself. I still miss you every day, but I am thankful for every day I had with you. Pain still exists because I lost you, but so too does the joy that came from knowing you.
I am lucky to have said goodbye, but I am luckier because I had someone who made saying goodbye so hard. There are two moments I will never forget, the moment we met and the moment you took your last breath.
People will always remember your special smile, your caring heart, and that warm embrace you always gave.
When you died, it was the biggest shock of my life. Nothing prepared me for it. I live each day wondering how I will get through it …. And then I remember, you would want me to.
The mountains you are carrying, you are only supposed to climb.
Whenever you find yourself doubting how far you can go … just remember how far you have come.
Remember everything you have faced, all the battles you have won, and all the fears you have overcome.
Never regret a day in your life, good days give you happiness, bad days give you experience, worst days give you lessons and best days give you memories.
In loving memory, Dee Heidt (Harrison)